TROPHY Boyfriend.

I have been thinking a lot lately about my future. About to finish up my last year of undergrad, I feel this urgency to line something up to stable-ize my life. With this impatience, I acknowledge a risk/sad possibility that there won’t be a large enough market for me to find a job. Sometimes I let it consumes me and start planning a mitigation tactic: to push graduation back a year and take another degree in something like Finance or Accounting even.

It’s a wonderful idea. It could mean I get to travel again while doing a semester in Europe.Lucrative and brimming with adventures. Gaudi. Le Louvre. Sistine Chapel. Morroco. It’s easy to follow leap onto this “mitigation” plan.

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A wise mentor once gave me a really great advice that I want to share. She instructed that, for every project that seems scary, hard, and far away. (I.e. Something like finishing a degree, a huge project at work, or paying off your mortgage.) All these things are personal but they don’t give us a source of excitement like something a bit more indulgent. This indulgence will give a sense of imagination/snapshot of the moment that we crossed the finish line.

In summary:

1. Pick an obstacle in your life that you are trying to pass that takes a tremendous amount of work.

2. Find a few big and deserving awards TROPHY for YOU give yourself only if you cross the finish line.

3. Narrow the choices down to the one with dependency and someone to keep accountability of you crossing the finish line the person to present you your trophy. (i.e. A 4 weeks’ vacation after you finish a project at work which won’t be possible unless you meet the deadline)

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As this escape arises. I keep thinking about my trophy and I intertwine it with my graduation.Lucky me, I have thought of the perfect gift for myself. I would Officially come-out to my mother. I would introduce Steve to her when he visits to attend my graduation.

Excitement: This allows me to sketch the location, atmosphere, company, menus… etc. of the “event.” I talked about it briefly with my sister this morning over lunch. And how I want to hold the dinner in the backroom of Rasoi (pictured)

Dependency: Unless I complete my degree my mother will give objections to such a relationship saying how negatively it could impact my education. Worries about my future. As a college graduate, I feel that I won’t fit that picture of the “scary” homosexuals she stereotypes.

This blog isn't about Steve. I notice that most of them have a way of relating to him. I hope it gives a glimpse of what my plans are for next year. For those of you who have the opinion that I am ungrounded.

Thinking about the future, I feel as if I am going to tip over for being so heavy with dreams anticipation. I do want to graduate. I am going to graduate.

Now the next step is to plan this soire! and graduate.