On my way back from grabbing take-out lunch for the team, a bit drenched from the rain and having to run back to my car twice. A stranger, a wonderfully handsome stranger with bright eyes, opened the door for me. Ear to ear smiles, our eyes meet for a second as I offer my gratitude. I felt my heart quicken. And strangely, shy and nervous. So shy and nervous that I scooted away too fast to be confused about what to do. Scared to make a move as I normally would.
As I was having lunch, a mix of emotions flooded in: regret, guilt, satisfaction, shame, just a crazy bunch of silliness that a high school sophomore would have.Thinking about the stranger, about all strangers, what the potential of strangers could mean. And the mixes of emotions that would come with each. The anxiety, the confusion, the smiles. Oh the smiles.
Then, after pondering for about 10 minutes, I popped open a bottle of carrot juice and started to wrap up my lunch break with a fortune cookie... I cracked 3 fortunes, in one cookie!
Reading each, I couldn't help but smile. As if each were to note all the things I carry on my chest at night. Each confirming that there are some form of spirit out who understands and is reaching out.
I couldn't help but carry the giddy smile all afternoon. Seeing how the combination of events, people, successes and challenges are really moving forward. I feel my steps slowing down from its manic pace yet making bigger strides.
Maybe the next time I see him, I will keep the same smile, the same confusion, the same shyness. Maybe the next time I see another handsome stranger, luck will strike again with the same turmoils.
The season does change fast and I find myself getting ready for fall.
P.S. My 3 fortunes.
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